It has been so easy in the last couple of years to allow myself to worry, to overthink everything and to focus on all of the things that have not yet happened.
It is so easy to wish that I could just fast-forward my life to the time when I will have all of the things that I want in life.
I have struggled with focusing on all of the things that I don’t have instead of appreciating the things that I do. It has definitely gotten better over time but still each day is a conscientious choice to be positive, to be grateful and to have a good day.
I don’t want to live my life constantly comparing and neglecting all of the blessings that I have been given.
So over the past couple of years, I have learned to surrender.
I can’t do everything on my own. I can’t rely on the people around me to fix things for me and I’m not the one in control.
I need to remember who is in control, who I can rely on, who is faithful and who promises all for my good.
I need to offer God my life, my desires, my wishes and my dreams. I need to let him have control and take over; every day and every night. He knows what is right for me.
God has my heart and he will take care of it, protect it, and nurture it. He tells me to stop acting like I know what I am doing and where I am going. It is only Him, who has an understanding of my life and where it is going.
My faith in Him needs to be stronger each and every day.
I will continue to try to stop worrying so much about the things that I cannot control. I will no longer try to find answers to all the questions. I will never doubt Him when I am in the middle of my struggles. Instead, I will let my life unfold according to His plan.